when your family seems such a happy family when you are not with them.

65953) It’s not funny to always be the “fat friend”, the one who’s “nice” and never “beautiful”. It sucks, I’ve been this for my whole life and I just can’t stand it anymore.

Every morning my cat meows at me so I open the bedroom and she can go out at the same time I can hear my mom screaming “Breakfast’s ready”

And is that exact moment when all I can think is “no nO NO! WHY? why can’t people just die in the middle of the night? why do I have to do this all over again today”

And I pretend I’m ok, I watch movies with my family or friends, I go to french school every saturday, I go to the choir, I talk about plans and future with my friends; but every night all I can think of is “please, please, this can be the night  there’s no reason for me to wake up and you know it, please just let me die”

And then I wake up with a meow and a scream that I don’t to hear anymore.

The day is coming

I want to just die.